I have the luck to enjoy my job.
It wasn't my first choice, but it is giving me something. It is giving me stories, a glance to another world, a hidden world. A connection with people i would never talk with otherwise.
In addition to this, I paint, write, and find everyday a way to express my feelings.
I am surrounded by people that most of the time do not understand what i have just said.
The most common question is: "I don't understand why you work in the luxury / French luxury Maisons: you should be painting, no?" This question hurted me at the beginning. Then i saw that these people were feeding on my sincerity, on my empathy, my way to see things in a different way. Today, i just think they are sadly narrow-minded.
Some people just need to "labelize" you, classify you based on what it makes them feel better. They will create their vision of you without knowing you at all. For them I am "an artist", "creative", therefore i cannot be "squared", i cannot be "detached from feelings". Classify. Compare. Good people will learn to understand that these labels are just an illusion, Bad people will use them to destroy you because they can be jealous or simply threatened.
This is quite overwhelming but this is common to many jobs.
Secret is to have compassion. That's my way of thinking. I pity them at the end: they rot their days thinking to classify everything and everyone, doing their utmost to be better than someone else. Getting More, Doing it fast. Seek and destroy. Get a promotion, a new tv, lose ten pounds, buy the new car.
Actually I am OK with that as long as they do not build what i call a"Dialectic of Delation" that destroys the good relations.
Let it be.
Take whatever overwhelms you and split it. Deal with every issue one by one. Gently.
Enjoy your family, your friends, your passions.
Ignore the rest. Protect your Empathy and go on.